Friendships are starting to get overrated. There are friends who show thy care and ones who claim they are friends but dont show it. Im the friend who means it when i say im your friend. and i dont just say it, i show it. when a friend is in need i try to be there. when im in need, i hope that my friends show they care. and most do. Some say theyre my friend but when im down, in their own way, they can make me feel like shit. But when they are down, i still try to be there, only to get pushed away and made to feel like shit. worthless. like i dont matter to them. but then they wanna turn around and say they dont have anyone who shows they truly care. so basically, everything ive done was for nothing. Not even for the sake of friendship. i thought i was helping a freind only to be shown that im not worth their friendship. Ok. thats cool. Be alone. Cry that you have no one who cares. cause now you dont. I did, but youve shown me that me caring is not wanted. You got it! Everything ive done, sacrifices ive made, shit ive delt with from my other friends saying im stupid forstaying your friend was for nothing. Youve just shown me they were right. and again....i feel like shit!
i feel like shit cause ive been shown ive wasted my time with you. When youre in need, i was there. when you had nothing, i gave to you. when you felt down, i tried to give you words of advise and love. When i felt down, you made me feel like shit. Like i was stupid for feeling the way i did. and through all of that, when we didnt talk, and you contacted me, i still showed you love and pushed youre bullshit to the past. No more. You want attention. But you want attention from the wrong people and for the wrong reasons. You kept pushing me away and when i tried to go away, you pulled me back. no more. im not here for YOUR convenience. you were in my life cause i wanted you in my life and you kept telling me you wanted me in yours. now because i gave you the same advice you gave me, you said i was wrong and deleted me. so now i say....fuck you.
dont try to call me, dont try to contacted me in any way. your phone will be turned off, you will be erased from my memory. If you try to contact me, you will be ignored. this is what you want, so now you got it.
you are no longer worthy of assimilation.
i was looking around for some bb themes, and you i saw your blog URL, and thank god i've clicked it. cause what you written down it's so true man. it's like a never ending circle of shits i'm telling u. til right now i don't even know how to define a true best friend and whatsoever, cause one time we just feel like we're really close to that person, the next time feels like we don't give a shit cus they give shit to us. yeah. but hopefully u can manage to struggle through out this prob. it's either one day true friends come along, or u'll be just less caring and make a whole new definition of friendship. cheers.
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